Always SOmething

Always something   Well , I met a guy who I went to school with online of course . He was nice and we would talk on the phone from time to time. I knew that I wanted more however he lived far away and was just ending a long term relationship . They were broken up , however we all know breaking up is a process. we were getting closer. I remember waking up and being excited to hear from him. Now i am disgusted it this fact. One day I was hanging out with a few friends and I mentioned I was in contact with this guy. One of my friends asked me for his name. I said his name . (no no no folks I won't be saying his name here ) . My friends had a rather peculiar look on their faces as one asked what was the guys last name. I said his last name . One of my friends then started shaking and said that's him. The year prior she reveals that our freshman year  she was slipped something and raped by the guy I was talking to.  That was it. The end. I often wished she would have told when it happened but I know about the shame that comes with rape. Sometimes I  wish she would have told me but I'm sure she knew  I would have told for her.  And embarrassed her in the process.  I still feel he needs to be in somebody's  prison .    I know many of you wonder how I was so easily able to cast this guy aside ? Well , although I would love to be with someone . I don't want just anyone. I can only imagine what he could have done to me . I can only imagine the girls he has raped. I think about how many other guys that are out there that don't rape innocent young girls . I remember discussing this with a few people and many women said "well maybe she gave it up and regretted it ?" well , I don't care if my friend tells me something . That's it . I'm going with that.  Even now I admire my friend. She said nothing and went to school , joined activities and graduated all while her attacker was within feet of her. She suffered in silence yet managed to accomplish her goals.    I just hope that one day as women we will all be able to have the strength to tell without fear of not being believed.