Shhhhhh! Shut it !

Perhaps You Have Said Too Much

Because I am running out of stories and I am slowly getting bored , I decided to try my hand at online dating . I started speaking to one guy and I wasn't that attracted to him from what I saw but he seemed nice . I decided I wanted to hear his voice so I gave him my phone number . We talked on the phone and he asked me why I was single . I told him I meet crazy guys . I mentioned the guy from  computer love and one other previous posting . He then spoke about girls trying to use him for money   , girls not being too interested and his last relationship . He went on and on about how they lived together , why they broke up and how silly he thought it was.  He went on and on and on and even mentioned their sex life . Truth be told, I didn't want to hear all of that . It made me pity him and also think he was effeminate . He then went on to tell me he lived at home , he had friends that he was smarter than and brought up his views on gay marriage .  How would you feel if the first phone conversation you had with a guy was like this ? I mean I listen , I'm good at it but when you are telling me about how dumb your friends are , I'm not sure I really want to be in your circle as you can choose your friends. So if your friends are so bad, why do you continue to have them in your life ?  I'm  thinking he needs a therapist so I told him. 

I then told him he wasn't for me . He proceeded to get whiny and ask why ? His exact words were "why don't you like me ?".  What would you have answered ? I chose not to answer . My thoughts were ,  I just met you and you're asking questions that even I would not ask at this point in my life . 

He told this stranger a lot . I think people should think about what they disclose to people in the beginning . Perhaps he said too much . Wouldn't you agree ? 

Crush the way ...I like it !

Do you remember being young and having a crush? You feel weak in the knees. Your eyes, your heart and face light up when you think about this person. You can't speak when they’re around. You faint internally when that person speaks to you. I live for this feeling. I live to tell a close friend that I saw the current crush today. I live for the butterflies, light flirting and the hope.

Honestly, I feel like every week I have a new crush. I do. Something happens to me. I see someone, they become my crush and I either pursue it or I just let it linger. When I let it linger is the fun part. I talk to the person crack jokes maybe just say a faint hi. It feels great just to have a crush. I think it's the excitement of the secrecy. My private world and imagination run wild when I'm crushing on someone. Some of my best writing pieces were written when I had a crush.

When I pursue a crush the fun starts to dwindle, it loses excitement and the person many times loses luster. I get to know them and I get bored. I get disappointed. Lastly they often become a blog story to entertain my friends and my readers. Crushes for me often end tragically and the magic I once felt is incinerated by reality of what the person is and not what I hoped they would be. So sadly I'm a crush whore. Crushing because sometimes the things I imagined are so much better than what these people turn out to be . How do you feel about crushes?