Sooooooo .. I decided to be back, It's been a while. Not that I haven't been dating in the 10 months since my last post. However, I needed time away from it. I think that I didn't need the blog so much anymore. I think ...... Or maybe I just needed some time away . I am going to try and be better . Don't get mad at me yall .
With that said, I will get on with it. I met him in January . He was 6'5" a divorcee from out of state. He had all the things that I was looking for. He had a career, a car , and a house . He also told me I was beautiful. He would pick me up, drop me off and he wasn't afraid to come to visit me because of my neighborhood. I was crazy about him.
I was so crazy about him I gave him some on the second date. That is probably a record for me. I never give it up. I use my vagina on average about twice a year! Charlottes web aint got nothing on me :-) . In any event, being with him physically or not was always a great time. Everything was wonderful, he was a gentleman in public and an animal behind closed doors. I thought I was falling in love.
I didn't notice it because at the time, I was working full time, going to school full time and interning. Lets just say a good day was 5-6 hours sleep was a rare treat for me. There were times I did not remember what he said or conversations we had. I felt bad but it was true. At first he would complain about it , then he used it to his advantage. He would twist events and make me out to be the bad one in any disagreement we had. Because I was concentrating on getting an advanced degree , If I remembered to put on underwear I was lucky . He was lucky that my memory was not at 100 percent .
The last straw was when he said he told me he was going to Vegas. He left and didn't call me the entire time he was there. I was not expecting a call every day but at least a hey , or I'm here. That was all I wanted . Not a call every day . Not to mention he was there playing poker and it was Vegas. I saw Casino- I was scared for him. When he came back he made it seem like I was crowding him. Like I had time for that . He then compared me to his ex-wife and his brother who he said were not upset with him and assumed he was having fun. I guess I cared too much . Wait. There's more.
There was also the joke ... (or so I thought it was a joke) about me getting a friend for us to share. Initially I didn't take him serious especially because I'm, not about that life and that's nothing I would ever want to try. I'm not saying its wrong or right, I'm just saying its not for me. He even offered to get a stripper if I wasn't comfortable with a friend. I told him no. He laughed it off . Every time I was out with friends or I showed him a picture with me and friends , he would joke( or so I thought ) about which one he wanted. I finally confronted him about it and even asked if he would mind if I wanted a guy. He said he would do it for me. I was disgusted. He didn't see things my way. To me the bed was not for three. I had to say goodbye I only do one at a time.
So in this instance , What would you have done?
